Wrath

He was to take a step that would change almost everything. It was to turn his life around 360 degrees. It was the hardest thing, something he never imagined would happen - but it was the worst case scenario. It had been enough of giving to others. It took him a lot of struggle, a lot of sacrifice and a lot of pain to realize that he was done helping and thinking about others. It was about time he started thinking about himself and doing things for his own self. Self Respect. Others saw him as a person who was weak, dependent and couldn't stand up for himself. He never had an outer shell. He blindly trusted anyone and told them almost everything. For 2 years, he gave a band his all and never got anything in return. For they were his brothers. For they were the ones he was happy with. It was very hard. It was intense. It was maddening. For more than 2 years, he was in this void that he couldn't get out of. He feared this would happen. He gave his very own passion for his brothers. After all, family involves sacrifice. All he wanted was an assured place in the family for the future. Thats when things fell apart. They didn't tell him anything because they didn't want him to get hurt and feel sad. But the truth was, hiding the reality became the root cause of the agony. He'd rather prefer reality and face it rather than be blinded by it. It became irritating, intolerable. He remembered old times, when everything was so perfect. Everyone was happy. But then again, different aspirations. The human mind is the most selfish thing on this earth. It drives the person to do everything for himself.

He was lost, unsure, insecure. The only relief he would get was when he would talk to her. She would make him smile, make him feel better. She would listen to him and help him out. When he would talk to her, he would forget everything and just get lost into this different world, a much more easy and care free world - No responsibilities, just utter bliss. But he felt as if he was running away from reality. Then came the trustworthy senior. He made him realize his potential and made him think about what all he was doing. He was harming himself by not thinking about himself and then mourning about lost opportunities. He told him to be strong, to get up and fight. He made him realize that he was failing his own music. He was doing something which he never wanted to do. Music was the only thing that kept him going through all the bad times, and he was neglecting that. "If there's one thing i've learnt, it's that you realize the importance of something only when it's not with you anymore, that's what i would do if i was you. Do your own thing, earn respect for YOUR music." It changed his whole mind set. Its sad that the world is turning out to be individualistic and greedy when given a weird situation. But theres nothing you can do about it. To survive, you've got to do the same thing. 

He didn't want any bad blood between the brothers. He didn't want their relationship to change. He was scared, he didn't want bad blood. He wanted his brothers to still be there for him, support him while he parted ways and went his own way. Then came judgment day. With courage and determination, he said what he had to. Surprisingly, his brothers helped him, went with his decision. He was so glad and happy that he started crying. He had never felt so touched. For the first time he felt that people finally gave back something to him. Finally someone recognized his importance. It felt different, if felt lively, it felt great! He was at last happy and peaceful. But this is just one step. There are many rocks to be turned. Its she who he has to think about now. He either does something or its plain simple "Click. Delete." Like it never happened. To even think about the fact that it never happened. Not possible. Comparatively, this was nothing then. :P