After some time, things started getting better. A new class, new friends, a whole new environment. It felt nice. The fact that every day was different, better – and you could sleep easily without talking to your mind. On another front, I was not looking for a relationship anymore; rather I would concentrate more on building a solid friendship. But straying off this goal was sadly occasional.
It’s really funny sometimes, when you feel that someone talks in a certain way just with you – when the fact is that they talk to everyone like that. Experiencing a variation in moods of such people is rather rare. And that sucks big time. :P You want to know more about them, but that aint gonna happen in a long time. Patience is something I have gotten better at in the past one month. There are those moments when you feel alone or you know just plain simple bored, but then there are positive things happening around as well. So I guess being neutral is better off than being depressed or being too happy. And im not thinking that much about it comparatively. I have realized what is of more importance. Thinking less about all this stuff gave me more room to experiment and be creative to a large extent.
And I have to say this – The best part this time was, I had someone to help me out and guide me through this phase of rather mixed emotions - If it was either positive or negative, having that someone who would help you no matter what felt really good. Finally someone actually returned the favor. So, I guess there is a light at the end of the tunnel, and maybe I am far better off and happier than others.
