Sunday, 11 September 2011

In Your Words

I'd never thought that I would ever think this seriously in my life. I guess this is really, well I don't know what to say. What I can say is, that I guess this is THE most serious post that I'm going to write (for now). I just finished watching the movie "Almost Famous" which came out in 2000 and it was about a boy who is a rock journalist and that he tours with this band called Stillwater and writes an article about them. The movie is all about how rock and roll started, its set in the early 70's - when The Who, Led Zeppelin, Black Sabbath and all those guys would tour around in buses and play small stadiums or banquets and have them groupies and all that shit. And here's this 15 year old kid, who writes to like about the musicality of the music and how he gets exposed to the reality of rock n roll and how he gets it out. This got me wondering. Really got me wondering. What am I really going to do when I grow up? Do I do something which gets me easy money and luxurious life? Or do I do something which brings me happiness, the stuff I really want to do. Yeah, I've taken Humanities. Sure I've told my parents that I will try my best to study well, get good marks and make it to Oxford University. And Sure Ive planned that I will become a lawyer, not because my parents want me to become one but because I really want to bring change in the Indian society. But the fact is, what do I really want to do? 



Whenever I think to myself about being a lawyer, its always because a lawyer always finds time for what he really wants to do. And you know its always like - yeah ill do law, because then ill get time for my music. Thats it. That's where everything stops. My music. Its this world where I can just forget about everything and just care about how I can come up with a good riff, or a good song, or a good setlist for a gig, or what new album to listen to, of what song to listen to right now. Its almost never ending. My music gives meaning to my life. And I really don't know now, what will I really do when I grow up. I mean, I really want to be in a band which goes international, I really want to be in a band who tours all the european festivals and headline tours and play with all the mighty bands. Yeah, I really want that. But everything over that, I really want to make good music, Music that I am proud of, the music that I make. I don't know, its like its all connected. After all, music is the most artistic way to release your emotions and share it with other people. Yeah sure you can write the lyrics in a poetic manner or a very sarcastic manner or whatever - But it all comes down to the fact that whatever you write is what is what you're feeling and what you want to convey.  I guess it gets all down to that. I guess in a society like ours, if there is anything that gives me hope - is the music. And yeah, I mean metal. Sorry if any of you thought that I was talking about any other genre. 

Im really confused, the fact is I really want to to make my parents happy, but at the same time, I don't know if Ill be able to pursue my dream. I guess its likewise for all my bandmates (best friends). One wants to make it to IIT, one wants to go to Yale or Harvard, and well I don't know about the third one. :P The fact is that music has touched my life in a very different way. Im not after the money, Im after the recognition - Im after the fans. I don't care about anything else. I just want to have fun making music, getting my music out there. And well, If you like my music, thanks a lot and if you don't, thats also fine. 

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